toady, i know you've hurt yourself and others because of all this stuff, but things won't simply return to normal. framing other people and producing illegal content is a pretty big low. if you want this apology to seem legit, then try to better yourself, and take it step by step. don't rush a redemption arc, it won't go well. and if you're still not being accepted? leave. you're probably tired of hearing that, but it's the only saving grace for you.