please know 3 things.
first. self harm. there is no such thing as deserving self inflcted pain. at all.
second. depression. love is out there for everyone at somepoint. in someone. but no one guarantee youl find them.
third suicide.
take note of who youll leave behind.
or who you could harm in the process.
your death can hurt more people than you think.
so at last consider these things the next time you wake up.
and sleep. for that is in which the mind can heal.