Real tbh

Self respect and having standards for your own behaviour? Wanting to treat others as you would like to be treated?

Its utterly meaningless anyway. People treat it as a weakness and abuse with it. We live in a world which doesnt appreciate kindness and decides to mock it instead

That is a profoundly nihilistic world view.
Perhaps try to focus more on the good people in your circle?

There is few. And i partly, internally have my own dislikes for them. They develop with time