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This might be 4 years too late but I never really apologized for my betrayal of the stream. I might’ve said a few sorrys here and there, but I never made a formal apology. Honestly the day I decided to betray the stream, I don’t even know what I was thinking. I was one of the first members of the stream, I helped raise it, even though I didn’t make it, it was kinda like my baby. I think its creation was after the first war ended, when the only stream available was the anime_army. I remember staying up late to set up activities or raids for the next day, and I remember logging on and the first thing I would do was check this stream to see if the AAA attacked. I believe another war happened and this time I helped on the side of the AGA, but my memory is quite shoddy so I’m not sure. Eventually as time passed I found myself increasingly preoccupied with affairs in the Crusader stream, which is eventually what led to my “betrayal.” Because I had friends in the AAA, who were also part of the crusaders, and myself being an owner in the AGA, if a war was to ever break out (which it would), I would’ve been in a hard place. Initially, I sided with the AGA, yet I told my troops to not attack other crusaders who were in the AAA. After this though, I became increasingly pressured to pick a side. Before I go on, I don’t want to put the blame of my betrayal on anyone. I knew what I was doing and I knew the risks involved.

That being said, there were increasing pressures from within crusader stream which caused me to pick a stance on anime. There was large infighting within the stream as the crusaders were split on anime. Because most crusaders were anti-anime, I had to side with them. This enraged many crusaders who saw no reason as to why anime should be banned, and I should have listened to them more as Crusader stream deeply prided itself on being neutral to other conflicts. Then we come to the night of my betrayal. As stated before, nobody singular pressured me to do this. By that time I had owner in the AAA and AGA, so it felt wrong to me (for some reason) that I had both, instead of realizing it was a bridge for peace. I was also becoming increasingly jealous of people within the Anime army and AGA, which is why I initially left the anime army months prior to solely focus on the AGA. I saw other people getting promoted even though I had been more influential, and it rubbed me the wrong way. (Idk why tho I was just small minded and jealous.) Anyway, night I had reached my breaking point. I was planning to do a full arkuum of msmg, but as I reflecting I realized that I still loved the AGA. So all I did was unban some alts (that were already abandoned) and then demoted a few mods (who weren’t active anyway). And then I waited till the next morning to await my consequences. I don’t remember if I removed my owner or not, but because of the time I had to wait for myself to get removed. I also deleted every single image I posted in the aga just cuz I thought they were corny. They were, but I highly regret that just because of the nostalgia factor. I wish I could still see them to this day. Anyways, that’s sorta my story. Ik im forgiven now, but I just truly wanted to apologize for what I did.