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the reason I'm with sum1 like 2 days after a breakup is bc I rely on others to make me feel cared about,loved, happy..and to give me comfort because I cant feel that way by myself no matter how hard I try..and last time I was 'alone' for awhile...I almost KMS...I hate when people call me a player or a w**re because I don't want to constantly be with sum1 new...its just when I'm single....i think about how they broke up with me because I'm unloveable, worthless, and a good for nothing piece of shit..so I get with someone else so I can move on easier...but I hate how I cant rely on myself to feel ok...and it just makes my mental health worse...idk what to do anymore...I love my girlfriend with my whole heart and soul...but sometimes I wonder how much she loves me...is she like everyone else who js dates me bc she feels bad..or does she really love me...bc she acts like she loves me..but bc of my past..idk what to believe; PPL KEEP TALKING SHIT AND ASKING WHY I'M CONSTANTLY IN RELATIONSHIPS SO I'M POSTING THIS