I'm so tired of feeling this pain, like nobody really gets what I'm going through. It’s like I’m screaming inside, and no one hears me. Why can’t everything just end? I just want it to stop! It feels like all my friends are either drifting away from me or just using me for their own needs. The people I used to think of as my brothers and sisters now act like they can’t stand me. They drop hints that they’re annoyed, and it’s like they don’t even want to talk to me anymore. It hurts so much, and I don’t know what to do about it.
I keep thinking, should I just stop talking with everyone and try to make new friends, both in real life and online? Or is it better to just stay in this miserable place where I feel like I’m losing my mind? Every day feels like I’m sinking deeper into this darkness, and it’s eating away at me little by little. I can’t shake this feeling that I’m all alone, and it’s driving me crazy. I just want the pain to go away, but it feels like there’s no escape from it.
Sometimes, I even think about ending it all because I don’t know how to handle this anymore. I feel so lost and confused, like I’m stuck in a never-ending hurt. I wish I could find a way out, but it’s like I’m trapped in my own head, and it’s getting worse every day. I just want someone to understand, to help me, but it feels like I’m screaming into a void. I don’t know what to do anymore, and it’s terrifying.