I might let go soon,probably real soon, I want yall to stop caring so It wont hurt as bad when I do..I cant do this anymore, why do so many people care about me, they dont really know Me, I'm not a good person at all..even those who know what I've done (eli & Connor) still care..WHY..WHY DO YALL CARE ABOUT AN UNSTABLE,STUPID,UGLY,ASSHOLE LIKE ME!? WHY!? YALL JUST MAKE IT HARDER TO LEAVE THIS BEHIND..IM tiRED OF PEOPLE CARing! IM TIRED OF TRYING TO DO thingS RIGHT OR CHANGE MYSELF TO MAKE OTHES HAPPY! MAKE IT STOP! JUST MAKE IT STOP!