genderfluid struggles

Basically the same for me except I go "holy sh*t I am so f**king gay" even tho I'm not gay

lmao
i do that sometimes but then im like "meh. im bi. i can be gay."

Yeah absolutely true

in what way?

the gender or typing?
if typing then i shall explain.
normal touch typers i think rest their hands on the f and j keys
my rest position is the right hand on the enter or right shif key
and the left hand on wasd
so like gaming has subconsciously taught me touch typing from those rest points

i made it ambugous in hopes you would tell me both
i mean, i dont touch type normaly either. i mianly use my middle and index fingers for typing. (i actualy cant remeber how i type)

in that case, i shall also talk about the gender. After breakfast, a thought I have is "what gender are you today?". I makemy decision and continue my day as normal. Then I get struck with a thought. Consider a day i take myself as male. I think "What if I'm faking being genderfluid and I'm just
a cis male?". Then consider a day I take myself as female. I think "What if I'm never male but am just tricking myself to think I am, hiding transness behind genderfluidity?". It isnt every day, but its a common thought.

i mean, you have the proof. may be a bit risky, but, try using a gender diary (i just made it up.) log what tender you feel on a given day, and when you feel like that, look back though your journal to see if that aligns. 99% of the time i assure you it wont.

i mean i already have a journal so why not

i feel chicken tenders today.

yum

yummers.

i love chicken