Maybe it's a little vent

I don't talk to anyone about my interests outside of the internet. Especially my parents.

I have to keep most of them hidden though because if my stepmom ever found about my liking to Murder drones especially, she's going to take my tablet away and she's going to think that the show will make me violent at school because of my "fragile mentality" despite liking the show since the pilot, and I can't talk about my others because she's also going to think they're too childish for me ESPECIALLY since I'm 15 now.

And I think it has lead me to never be truly happy at getting a gift. I got 80 dollars for my birthday, and even that didn't make me happy. I've been like this even since I was younger. from what I know from my parents, I've never even asked them to buy something for me other than sketchbooks.

Is this healthy?

no

Oh

brother who gives a shit if you like weird things

you probably care about it being an issue more than all your friends combined

No I care about my stepmom thinking it's an issue

I have anger issues and my stepmom doesn't even let me watch shows that are too violent because they can "influence me". She doesn't even let me watch certain documentaries. my tablet is my only escape from my normal life.

I can't really speak on that but your friends probably don't care

I wasn't talking about my friends ???

oh wait I misread a part mb

The humble Medkit:

damn that sucks, my mom's douche but at least she doesn't care about me having a wall for a fictional iphone
yet most of the things she gets me are not based on my niche interests and just assumes that i like certain things
niche stuff i gotta get for myself
in terms of liking things that are childish i personally would embrace it, who cares as long as you're happy
another thing your step mom would be an ass for assuming that something like MD would make you violent, like if you aint violent now from watching it, what's the difference with her finding out
also using your mentality to make such a conclusion is manipulation

Yeah

My biological mom says that she's controlling of me. My friend does too. I'm starting to wonder if they're actually right. My bio mom says that I should come to Live with her, and I'm thinking that might be a good idea. Theres so many people that try to bug me because of my anger issues at school, and I live with a lot of people in my house.

Maybe I need a restart in life.

It isn't healthy.

If you ever decide to, talk it out with your mom, but dont make anything obvious

OH DEFINITELY NOT.
That'll probably make it worse.

Besides, if I try to do that, my heart will start pounding like it's knocking a door.

Damn.