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Welp, this is going nowhere. Y'know, there's a point where you realize that everything's pointless. You're future is going to be mundane at best. That there will be nothing to come because the only things you're interested in you suck at, and nothing has gone the way you once thought it would. It's not about life being unfair (it never was), it's about wondering how you screwed up so badly over the years to end up where you are now. Someone who's memory is so bad, they might as well be the idiot they were all those years ago before they learned anything. One's who has never had one good idea.

And it's not like you can just go ask. Most sites you know don't worry to that way, or you're a practical stranger to everyone and everyone is a stranger to you so it doesn't feel like you should ask, and in real life you have access to no one, technically. Not anyone would could help you in this situation anyway. My only problem is that I don't feel like I can talk to anyone who'd actually feel bad for me. Not that anyone does, I'm just saying.

I mean, think about it. Just sitting here being boring but at least trying to do something expecting nothing, especially after getting washed after a few seconds. The only thing you expect to get is some vile comment just because you chose to exist today with little to no reputation (something you should focus on so much) but nothing good regardless.

It's too difficult coming up with good ideas these days. Most of them have probably been done already, leaving the all bad ones. And none of my ideas have worked so far. Tho, I think part of it is because I don't know that much. I just have the most bland, simple, straightforward knowledge set out there, I don't even know what that means. I'm bad at phrasing things too, but it'd probably take me five hours to figure out something decent at the very least.