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Soooooo maybe go to a therapist or smth?

Draw, what are your hobbies do those, work out, touch grass it’s really help with mental health don’t doom scroll on tiki tok ig reels, ect.

Yeah that works too

therapists are expensive

They are? Like how much are we talking?

like 100$ for an hour

jesus christ you were right whoops

yeah it sucks

and streaming twenty one pilots is free.

huzzah

music is a great therapy. and also the worst healer. depends on what you listen to.

true
the music i listen to gives me frequent existential crises

can also help you open up. making you feel less alone.

i hate existential crisises
like youre just walking around the house when you get hit by the sudden realisation that in a miniscule amount of time compared to history you will most likely be forgotten about and you will be dead forever, no second chance, no life after death. no consciousness. forever. just a blip and you are going from a living thinking being to just silence. not even a sleep, just knowing that one day you will be gone.

ive come to acseptance. i finaly get to rest (hopefuly after an impactful life) when that day comes.

and thus we have come to an agreement

even just having the ability to end it after eons you decide it. it makes the deal way better.

still.
imagine everything you could do for our species with all that time

yeah, but like. endless torment. you would likley be researched on. pried appart by resarchers. only to find nothing.

okay? that would last maybe a year or two, max.

still, all things come to an end. the human race is no exception.

okay fine.
what about
immortality
but you can end yourself instantly at any time past age 90
whenever
opt in aging and death

would take that. just kill yoursef when the universe ends.

immortality would be amazing.
sure, you'd have to get over the pain of losing loved ones over and over, but im sure with hundreds of years to figure it out, you having the combined knowledge of humanity could solve so many problems

TRY DOING THAT WITH THE HEAT DEATH OF THE UNIVERSE. DUDE.

will admit that would suck

how would you like it if every living moment you felt like you were suffocating?
if given the choice between imortality and death i would sure as hell take the latter.

ok but like
youd have at least a couple million years before that happens
you could become the smartest person
and invent a way to prevent our extinction for longer
then invent time travel or sum shit

a) you are immortal, it will cme eventualy
a2) 10^100 years at least before all entropy is gone when there are just supermassive blackholes
a3) 5 billion years
b) mental capacity will hender you
c) that will likely happen without you
d) discover the tachion then we will talk

but it isnt rest.
it is the total destruction of your consciousness forever. your life just gone.

eh, im fine with that. (rest meaning stop using energy)

you are fine with just not existing?
not being able to ever do anything again. rest implies a peaceful, sleep like state when in reality it is the total anihilation of you. Your memories, dreams, cares, woes, all lost to time.

is anihilation not just the end to something? all things need to come to an end. so why should i be scared about something that exists?

not all things should come to an end. for example, sentient life.

i mean, the concept? sure. but like. it will end. eventualy. the entropy of the universe will grow so high that nothing would be able to be sustained.
imortality sucks. and i sure as hell dont want to not die.
i forget the term but i think its nihalism. whereyou have come to terms with your mortality.

i dont feel like going to profetionals. ever. i dont know why. i prefer the way that i help people, in a more freeflowing open structure of helping people out. drawing owai really helped with my mind though.

Yeah well, maybe stick to drawing until you figure smth out

like,i know what caused this. and its a selfish reason. im not drawing as a lifeline. im doing it bcause its fun.

Sleepy

hope you can get good sleep. i really like sleep.

cookie, you need to get help. whethers its by a therapist or other means. you need serious help and you keep distracting yourself. this is the one thing you absolutely cannot procrastinate on.

yeahyeah... but like. im good now.
i think i know what to do next time.

fine

plus, its just an ingame thing. i was getting overwhelmed about how much attention i was getting.

oh, okay.

anyways, as a distraction. i drew my ss14 character. (depressed)

Never mind how we are, are you okay? 😥

i think so. prolly was just a downer day.