Since it’s unreadable, I said
‘ I want to be really loved and prized I want to feel like I’m needed I want to be deeply loved I want to be comforted I want to be worth fighting for I want to be worth protecting I want to be pretty I want to be really lovable I want to feel loved I want to be cherished and loved for everything that I am I want to be better than this I know all of these thing all stem to be NOT being good enough and I try to be good enough but it’s not that simple I want to change myself if I could I’d tear the flesh off my face and replace it I want to stop suffering I want to stop hating myself I want to feel ok and normal and loveable I want to feel fulfilled and happy I want it to all stop I want it to stop I want to make it stop I want to try to make it stop I want to try harder I want to be better I want to be a different person entirely’