im so tired of life. im leaving this place. i mean, if you can see this stream, you already know that probably. I dont know what to do anymore. if i leave, i have no one else. i have no one to talk to. i am already alone. and ill be even more alone if i leave. but if i dont leave, my mental health is gonna get worse. i dont even have anything else to do. or im just too lazy and i wont pursue anything else. I already have exceptional grades in school. im ahead of the game already. what more is there to do for me? i just want a friend who shares an interest with me. but i guess what i had is gone now. i say the same thing over and over again. that i miss my friends. i wish i had a happy life. but its out of my control. its out of my reach. cant believe its already september 30th. thought itd be a long time. but the opportunity is gone. it was already gone before the day i decided to leave. but bye. i know some of you care about me. but im a terrible person. i only chase what i want. i dont care about the little things that make life good. ill admit that. till we meet again. goodbye.