Friend Wanted Me To Leak, This Is The Best I Can Do (Leaking Both "Relationships" I've Had On Here)

Radium: - started out as a half-way fwb - never went further than sexual text and boob reveal - Mutually emotionally distant & absorbed in our problems - Severe tension over each other not feeling that the other was a good enough friend - About two relationships later, stopped being friends - Publicly feuding on MSMG & not-so-kind words were said - Leaked face reveal as revenge - Even more feuding (my end), trying to get other users to dislike him - Didn't talk in forever until half-assed apologies were said - Two or three more tries later, we started talking again but still couldn't stand each other - Barely acknowledge each other except for the occasional "hello" & one time of sex talk (that was it) - Been trying to reach out to him for old times sake (AS A FRIEND or frenemy, whichever) but we're never on at the same time; EmoSnake: - Started off friends & quickly became my emotional support - Was always really nice to me in a way that felt unreal but I liked it because I wasn't used to it - Would do the occasional flirt/compliment that gradually became more frequent & more colorful - Vented to him when I felt it was something I couldn't talk about with Dea - Went around like this for about a year before I decided I'd ask him out for a change - When I did finally ask, he was getting a lot of shit over cheating on another girl - Of course, I overlooked this, didn't really care because, hey, I've f**ked up too - Asked him out, he said yes but with an ultimatum: I couldn't say anything about it on MSMG (it had to stay secret) - Sent nudes to each other & arranged to do things like that on a regular basis - He went quiet for the next two days & disappeared off MSMG right after - Ghosted me for two weeks before sending me an email of "hey, how's it going?" - I snapped back, yelling at him for ditching me, and he didn't know what I was talking about - Found out he forgot about me and found himself a Scottish girl (which he posted about on MSMG) - Confronted him about it and that's when he came clean and apologized - Tried to work as friends with him again but there was a part of my brain that couldn't let it go - Confronted him again (a few more times) about the entire situation we had & he came back with the same response of he's sorry, I deserved better, and he's got a lot of shit going on - Gave him the opportunity to speak his opinion freely about me and had nothing bad to say (which is utterly sus because, hello, I suck) - Tried to explain my views on relationships with him because I still didn't feel right about it, he said he's been screwed over so many times so he doesn't put enough effort in & apologized for it - Told him some shit that happened to me IRL a month ago (around the same time we broke up) that would f**k up anybody, he brushed it off with a quick apology - Tried one last time to crack a joke with him but it didn't work & he was a little too quick to say goodnight - I've decided that I'm going to treat him like a random user I don't know from now on