looks to me like you already have nothing left, then
nobody likes you, and the people that do like you only do so because of the shit you put yourself through.
you don't have friends here. you don't know anyone here like a friend.
i don't have any friends here. i have people i like and who like me, but i do not and will never know them to the extent that denotes true friendship.
find an extracurricular, go outside and talk to people.
i don't even believe you are homeschooled, actually. considering that most everything you say about yourself or anyone connected to you here has been a lie.