part two i guess. ive been online for a while been exposed to people a lot older than me, so i started acting like them. i got in trouble more, i looked stupid more, and I realized earlier. i became a lot more mature than my colleagues. i think i did, at least. it really sucks. i act weird around people my age, and yeah i think im less happy overall because i realized a lot of the bad things in life earlier. this website has probably contributed to that. ive seen a lot of things a teenager shouldnt have. people here suck a lot to be honest. a certain amount of you guys are stupid as hell, annoying, even retarded to be honest (sorry). some of you are rude, idiotic, and you guys dont really act around your age. but thats msmg, isnt it. i regret coming here. i could have been happier maybe. maybe i wouldnt be hurt as much inside. but no, im staying because im scared. im glad im leaving now. like the buffoon i am, i hoped things would get better. but when do things in life go your way? you need to give up sometimes. you lose things, you get things. but sometimes hoping to get something back will just end up in you losing more. so sometimes giving up, letting go is better. dont listen to the stupid motiviational quotes. its all a lie. just because its the beautiful lie we wish to believe. if im going to be honest. i really really wished i could have been more. i am nothing. i am never someones first pick, or the top person. im just the person whos there. i bet you dont care. you probably havent made it this far. but if you do read this, thanks. but in the end, i stayed too. i still care about this place but the people i once knew are no more. so goodbye. it was fun. you guys were cool. but not so much anymore to me. you wont listen to any advice ill have to say. you just have to learn it the hard way. because humans are like that. we like to defy. we like to soar. and we fail. fail miserably. maybe i didnt try hard enough. maybe you will. but do something with your life. dont rot away here. but like i said. you wont listen. goodbye. it was nice, and not nice meeting you all.