Other than insults.

My insults were rash, poorly decided upon. My words, though I can never take them back anymore, had fallen under my own false sense of resolution, when it wasn’t appropriately expressed.

For me, I never see or would ever would want to call you names, I never would do anything rash, but I still see you as someone that I can call as a friend in life. My choices were uncoordinated, and were seemingly too stubbornly done, and I fault myself at that.

I admit the wrong things I’ve said and done, but with help and just a little hope, I can continue where I can be, and better. I WAS UTFan, you could’ve seen the growth that I had because I want to be kinder towards everyone. If I was the one who should’ve been thankful for the things that I got, then that’s what I should’ve been. And now, I should be thankful for the things and my place, and should pay yall back the right way.

Some things leave a trace in someone's heart that no one can erase.

I know. I’m a dumbass, a bitch, hell, call me the hoe and everything I called you when I lost myself to my rage. But I just want to be better in life, and I want to start things over, and to give it a new and better startup. I just need help, and I can’t seem to get any.

I tried to guide your hand to the Mercy button, but you seem to always choose Fight. You fight to protect. Violently.
And resets do not erase the dust that you have left behind.

I’m broken in this world, you know? I’m just a stubborn dumbass who just can’t think straight.

But now, I don’t want to fight anymore. I just want the reset and tie down the fight button and just choose mercy, each and every time. Was I pressing mercy when I went in as UTFan? Probably, I wasn’t arguing, wasn’t being annoying, just honest as I was, maybe showing some mercy for once. If that’s what I need to be, then I’ll be that way.

I just want help. I need help. I don’t want to lose the place that makes me feel safe. I just want to be the one pressing mercy each and every time.

You already have your own stream, and you're a co-owner on discord, i really don't see why you should come back when the only ppl that care about you here are a sprout and a flower (both small vegetals... pretty ironic uh?)

You're genocides. I'm pretty sure that once one had the bloody taste of victory, they're gonna miss it once they try to be pacifists.
You must convince the leader. I don't think you will ever be able to convince me.

I want to be the pacifist here. I don’t want to be aggressive anymore. It just makes me feel smaller…

Hmph.
There it is.
"It just makes me feel smaller."

I FEEL SMALL, OK?! I’m NOTHING! My heart ACHES, EACH DAY, AND I JUST DONT WANT TO FIGHT ANYMORE!

I feel small. I don’t want to lie anymore, I just feel SO SMALL… so alone… I’m tall, but I feel smaller. I just want to put my pride on the shelf.

And how do you expect yourself to change?

I want to show mercy. I want feedback to what I say or do. If something I say is wrong, then I want feedback on how to say it better. I expect myself to change by being kinder, more expressive with happier emotions and words, and I want to bury my anger six feet, six inches, and six centimeters down in the earth. I know that I can be better than who I was before, and I want to be better NOW. With what I was doing, it SUCKS. My pride is too damn high when it should be down to where it should be acceptable.

When I try to tell you that you're wrong, you challenge and fight me and then yap about American rights. I'm genuinely scared of making a single casual comment on any meme of yours in fear of it turning into a pointless argument.

Then I’d not challenge and yap like a Karen. If I’m lost on something, just tell me what is going on so I can understand what is going on.

I tried that before.
You still chose Fight.
Especially when YOU start it.

Fine then. *I throw the knife as it sticks on the wall* Just take it and bury it with my rage. I CANNOT be doing this anymore. If I’m so wrong, then I just need to find the RIGHT way to deescalate the situation. I’ll STOP and think before I say. Just like my ma told me, “If you ain’t got anything nice to say, then just don’t say it.”

That is a very wise quote that I always follow.
I wonder if you can follow it too.

I JUST WANT TO FOLLOW THAT-

Ma knows best, that’s why I love her so much. I should also take my own advice as well.

Well, Flare is to decide, and I think it's better to leave him alone for now. He's struggling.

If so, I’ll wait and let fate decide.

BEO WHAT ARE U BACK??

HI GOAT WELCOME BACK Even though im late

And said this at the wrong time apparently