am i sad? i dont know. :shrug: 41 days.

cookie if you ever need to vent just mc me or message me.

thats part of the problem. (ever seen encanto?) im not meant to break, not when i can help others. i need to be strong. and i know how wrong that is but i need to do it. and yes, i know i can help people better if i get helped myself. but i might just be scared. others telling me their problems seems to help me somehow, or i could just be lying to myself.
hmm, most of those lyrics i was saving were about hiding pain and such...

from experience, it's better to be on both the eecieving and giving end. It takess time, but things get better. You don't have to be strong if it means compromising mental health. It's okay to need help.

i mean,i was hella depressed this time last year. may just be an internal cycle (denyal)

i mean depression can be affected by the seasons even subconsciously
maybe winter is bringing down your mental health

quite the opposite, i funkin love winter, i hate summer. winter>autumn(why is it spelt like that?)>spring>summer
i love how people dispise it because its cold even though summer is 8 billion times worse. i can deal with the absence of heat(energy) but an exsess? nooo.
thank you for listening to my "why winter is better" ted talk.
also way cooler worldbuilding enviroment.

anyways,it was because last year i got dummped by someone who went to another person in negative days. i posted about it a bit.
(this "another person" is the one i play ss14 with)

ohhh
i also have the exact same seasonal preferences except swap summer and spring
i can stand heat but not hayfever

also can you elaborate on that last bit?

last year in may i got up with someone,in late july they dummped me, for another person (they probibly got together before we formaly broke up) that person who got with the person,ah f**k it. imma use their usernames
i was with this person, byte, they got up with another person, shurrpa, i was freinds with both these people before this mess. now i play ss14 with shurrpa like every 3rd and 4th day because i have stuff on. byte has a server on ss14 but they barely have it open.

ohh okay
that sucks :(

im fine (im sorta fine)

well, being sorta fine is on the way to fine. It just takes time.

whats the countdown in the title?

the day i am waiting for. why?