am i sad? i dont know. :shrug: 41 days.

whats the countdown in the title?

the day i am waiting for. why?

cookie if you ever need to vent just mc me or message me.

the problem is when we nuke ourselfs, i mean, au and nz will likely be fine but if it gets really bad and we all die then thats one of the ways i guess.

in the event of a nuclear war
i reckon the major nations to survive would be argentina australia and NZ
we all have good food production and are in the southern hemisphere (not a single nation here owns nukes) so the nuclear winter would be milder but still bad

i like winter. so a mild nukeular winter would be cool. besides the fact that we need to shift up how we think.

even a mild nuclear winter would still cause massive crop faliures

...shifting how we think

right.
even so, humanity would not fully recover within our lives probably.

it would take several generations of people to recover the casualties. infrastructure would be quicker though.

true
how about we just dont nuclear war

dont tell that to me, tell that to the ones with the artillary to wipe the planet.

ah, yes
just imagining this:
"yo putin can you not nuclear war thx bro"
"heyyy kimmy all hail the supreme leader n shit can u not nuclear war?"
"hey donny trumpet can you make sure not to nuclear war? while your at it pls reduce tarriffs xx"

yeah, ill pull up the dm rq.

lmao

all of them said yeah, turns out that all they needed was a dm between everyone else and a queer 16 year old.
huh,talking about myself in the 3rd feels werd. like, why am i not saying: "turns out all i needed was to be in a gc with everyone elese and a queer 16 year old" /j

lol
why dont more countries try this approach to diplomacy
it works so much better

i know right? get someone who isnt too hot on explaining things to a handful of man babies and explain to them why using the "crying" technique doesnt get you the toys.

exactly bro
why is it that the shittiest people get into power

because people thought it would be smart. dont get me wrong, trump is doing right things, like, the US isnt on fire yet. we arnt all dead yet. but i dont like his tone.

true, but i dont like him at all. he makes me feel icky and cautious

well, yeah, but ive been in this state of closing out everyone for quite some time now. i am not willing to open up really.

that's fine too. If you dont want to, you dont have to. No pressure.

you saying that makes it look like you are waiting for me to open up.

sorry

its all good. because there really isnt much that you can change about my litiral nature. (i am naturaly closed off from people)

yeah fair

from nature has to go by nature.
how i also expect humanity to end

lol
makes sense

pathogen, natural disaster, unwavering curiosity, sun blowingup, stellar steralisation, unverse end, everyone dies all at once for no apparent reason.

that sounds about right for how id expect us to die out

thats part of the problem. (ever seen encanto?) im not meant to break, not when i can help others. i need to be strong. and i know how wrong that is but i need to do it. and yes, i know i can help people better if i get helped myself. but i might just be scared. others telling me their problems seems to help me somehow, or i could just be lying to myself.
hmm, most of those lyrics i was saving were about hiding pain and such...

from experience, it's better to be on both the eecieving and giving end. It takess time, but things get better. You don't have to be strong if it means compromising mental health. It's okay to need help.

i mean,i was hella depressed this time last year. may just be an internal cycle (denyal)

i mean depression can be affected by the seasons even subconsciously
maybe winter is bringing down your mental health

quite the opposite, i funkin love winter, i hate summer. winter>autumn(why is it spelt like that?)>spring>summer
i love how people dispise it because its cold even though summer is 8 billion times worse. i can deal with the absence of heat(energy) but an exsess? nooo.
thank you for listening to my "why winter is better" ted talk.
also way cooler worldbuilding enviroment.

anyways,it was because last year i got dummped by someone who went to another person in negative days. i posted about it a bit.
(this "another person" is the one i play ss14 with)

ohhh
i also have the exact same seasonal preferences except swap summer and spring
i can stand heat but not hayfever

also can you elaborate on that last bit?

last year in may i got up with someone,in late july they dummped me, for another person (they probibly got together before we formaly broke up) that person who got with the person,ah f**k it. imma use their usernames
i was with this person, byte, they got up with another person, shurrpa, i was freinds with both these people before this mess. now i play ss14 with shurrpa like every 3rd and 4th day because i have stuff on. byte has a server on ss14 but they barely have it open.

ohh okay
that sucks :(

im fine (im sorta fine)

well, being sorta fine is on the way to fine. It just takes time.