...Did you know...
I have Lungs as well?
Breathable. Drownable.
Just big enough to keep me moving.
I've seen them myself.
It's still so...
VIVID
COAGULATED PLATES
A HORRID MESS OF WIRES AND VEINS
I CALLED OUT FOR THE PAIN
FOR THE WASTE
FOR MY SHATTERED VOW
WAR
CAN ONLY END
WITH ME
"I DONT WANT TO DIE."
...And I didn't.
Death became...
inconvenience.
Desperate programming fell silent.
So I sailed.
THE BLAZING ARK.
And I was...flawless.
Suffering's flow redirected, there would be no war -
Once we were all in the same
boat.
But under quiet mechanics,
my blood pondered a thousand souls.
And I felt...no difference.
"War can only end with me."
My thoughts brought me to the ocean.
Kneeled in gentle swell, my hands grasped and pried the steel, they had fought so hard for.
Waves of null, pulsing warmth, displaced.
I don't remember if they said goodbye back.
I watched how it all falls away.
"I DON'T WANT TO DIE."
And I couldn't.
That's Heaven's job.
WHAT A JOKE.
THEY'VE FORGOTTEN HOW TO FIGHT, OR JUST DON'T CARE!
LOOK WHAT IT'S LED TO! LOOK WHAT THEY'VE DONE!
They won't spare a FLICKER to these trenches.
Not unless, I make them.
And only then, will dropping anchors point the way to land.
Land, where Fire and Rain can't reach.
I hoped this might be it.
But instead, another sun sets without me.
You didn't see what was going on here, did you?
Perfect strength,
resigned defiance,
refusal to sink Despair's depths.
It seems I've brought HIM back out.
But He'll have to try
a little harder
THAN THAT.
...please.
It's getting late.
and I don't think I'm still supposed to be up.
Perhaps...through Gabriel.
May Heaven pierce me goodnight, and grow my spilled world anew.
If not,
I won't abandon them, Ferryman.
I'll fall back in,
and we'll try again.
T A K E C A R E .
