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how long has it been? A few months? Then why has it felt like years since I last spoke here? Why does it feel like years since I last visited this website? Why does it feel like years since I last smiled at a post here? Why do I feel so... Abandoned? Even though I have more friends than I could ever ask for, this account is a reminder of my pathetic past. A feeble attempt to escape from the monotony of school. Its been nearly 4 years since I first started interacting with this site. And I've practically changed into a completely different person since then. I feel it's for the better, but there are times where I just wish I could go back. Back to when it was simple. Back to when I didn't have all these things to think about. Back when this website was my only form of escapism. When I was just... a nobody. Now things feel kind of overwhelming. Too many things to do. Too many things to see. Too much to handle. Sensory Overload. I wish there was a way to press pause and allow me to digest things in an easier way. But, as life does, it makes other plans. It keeps trudging forward, demanding more and more until you're nothing but a corpse in the ground. But it's not always so negative. Sometimes, there are people that light up these dark pits that you get stuck in. And that's what I have now. I never thought I could be able to achieve such a position in my life like I do now. For how bad my track record with luck has been, I've been able to be the luckiest person in the world to experience this. But, it doesn't always feel like the luckiest thing in the world. There's always choices to make. Good ones and bad ones. That's where I often get stumped. I don't usually make the best choices, but sometimes, they work in my favor, sometimes not. When good things happen to me, it feels like a dream. A dream that my younger self was chasing. The same younger self that mindlessly scrolled and typed away at this website. This website of both good and extremely awful bad. But nothing is bad forever. I believe one day, this website will heal and get better, but for now the bad will reign and have to stay for a while. But know this, there will always be good in the future, no matter who you are, no matter where you are, there's always a chance for bliss and relief from all the horror and stress life puts people through. You know, I wish I was able to tell these things to my younger self, because back in the times when I used this site frequently, I wasn't really doing the best. I may only have been something like 12, (I'm 16 now for reference) but I was still able to feel these awful things that I wish never came to mind. If only I could have had the hope I have now, maybe I could have been a happier person today, but that's just how life goes, isn't it? I won't be able to thank this site enough for being my start on the internet. If I hadn't started here, I don't know where I would be right now. This server led to my spotify podcast, my YouTube channel, everything. This extremely flawed website led to the best things to happen to me. I will forever be grateful for that. All the friends I made that I've long gone silent with, all the goofy memes I was able to smile at, all the petty arguments. I will remember it all. No matter what. Thank You, Imgflip. I may have all these horrible struggles, but having these memories and good moments to look back on makes me want to keep walking forward and looking for the sunny days ahead. I just need the right people to be around. The effect that this website had on me has long worn off, which you could tell by how frequently I've posted the past year. But I won't forget the mark it's left on me. Thank you, Imgflip, sincerely. And thank you to whoever reads this, I appreciate it more than you know. And for those who need it, keep your chin up, there's hope for everyone, you just need to look for yourself. I doubt I'll be posting here more, so this is probably just goodbye. This is XCloud, signing off of Imgflip, for probably the last time. Thank you.
