Sucide isn't badass but genocide is

Then fix yourself
Addictions are one thing, but trying will make a huge difference

I don't
I do wanna hate myself that's how i make myself better
Hate is the driving force

Not necessarily...
There's a difference between hating yourself and seeing how you're wrong or bad. Seeing how you're wrong or bad and not liking yourself will help you be a better person, but just hating yourself without thinking it's even possible to improve can quite litteraly lead to death, sadely...

*sadly

Don't care

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