How to explain to an ex-friend that, yes, you hated them so badly that you wanted them dead because you two were fighting. But, now, a year later, the anger has worn off enough for you to care about the bastard again but that doesn't mean that you forgive them. But you also don't want to cut them out either so you check on them when you could. But you know that this probably makes you look like a hyper-obsessed bitch but you don't view them that way. He's like a bratty little brother that you want to throw off a roof but if anyone else lays a finger on him, you'll rip them apart. Not because you want to screw him but because you do care what happens to him, no matter how badly he pisses you off. How do I put this in short terms that isn't impossible for the average person to understand because I'm at a loss here, folks?
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