listen brother, there's a light at the end of the tunnel, it may take a while to reach, but you can do it, many have, and you can too, you must not let yourself fall.
my parents are like that.
but a parent won't overload you.
right now
you seem to be afraid and you think it's over
but it might be because you need to take the first step.
You might not have anything.
but you must start to try in order to have something.
try to tell your parents
but take the first step
they'll only be disappointed if you don't try.