both headphones in, max volume.

hi hey
im a distraction
how have you been (lately)

Hello
I have been good up until now so yaaayyyyyyyy...
hbu

bad
i tried to poison myself
shits been tough ykwim

Oh damn
Tf is up with people trying to poison themselves lately
My friend and my gf both have tried at least once in the past month

im trying a new method tonight bc it didnt work

Don't poison yourself bro
it's unreliable and when it doesn't work shit just gets worse
You probably already knew that but still
there's no benefit

yeah
thats why im tryin another way

why
seriously why

im tired of being the good kid to compensate for my sister being a brat
They expect too much of me. And also I've been thinking about it a while.

How much longer would you have before moving out is possible
Because without someone to compensate I get the feeling your parents would probably get siick of her shit real quick and do smth about it (in the ideal world, but work ith me here)

3 years

they refuse to do smth about her. she won't stop even if they tried

What type of shit does she do?

She yells all the f**king time
hits, punches, you cant reason with her
so ive tried to be as good as possible.

damn
honestly I'd just try to compensate a bit less for your own sake, and try to hold out for a little longer at least
Bc the other "option" just has worse effects
And besides, unless you go straight up to the shining gates I bet purgatory or hell would be worse

there's nothing past living. the requirements for heaven are selfish, made by people who set low expectations for them, but high expectations for others.

Allow me to present the alternative
Heavens requirements are just that you're not a piece of shit.
People throw it way out of wack with shit like "oh you can't swear, you can't be anything other than straight, you gotta believe in god" no.
He doesn't care
From what I've heard so far, honestly, you'd have good chances of making it
Bc if the basics of religion are true at least (from what I know and believe at least), god loves everyone so if there's a reason for them to get in to heaven, he'd let them.

But all that aside, offing yourself (mods are picky about my words now) usually doesn't even work and f**ks things up for everyone

Just try to make the best of shit while you still can and idk, talk to someone who can help irl
idk who but just someone who can do something when shit is hard or just in general

im a thief. I'm not seeing them gates.

Bro he has let in much worse before

is your dad an alchohalic

Yeah actually
Allegedly not anymore but sometimes it seems like that's bullshit

distraction from what

My f**kass brother yelling at my mom (she's yelling too but yk, they're both being stupid)
And it's a bit about my dad so he's gonna get dragged into this later, which will f**k over everyone in my house for a few days at least