relationships are overated.
(rant (ignore))(im broken like that. deep burried trauma, trust issues. the whole thing. i h... i- i hate it. it sucks. but i cant let go to what has happened before. and only now do i realise how stupid i was. the problem was right there. why did i get mad at them? there is still so much i do not know, and i want to know things. should i be content with what i know? but several things still trouble me, why did they dump me? should i have done it in the first place? they certainly wont remeber. they are broken, their partner is broken trying to fix said broken, im broken, then there is the last one, they just cant stand being without people. the whole world is broken. but why am i feeling it so personaly? so many questions. not a whole lot of answers. thats the nature of the world i guess. how would i go fixing my problem though? confronting my shadow? where? how? frickin english assignment. getting into everything. i cant just tell them how i feel, because they are broken too. and it may push them over the edge. to whom? should i just wait for them to get better? what if they dont get better? what if they go over themself? what then? will i just be stuck there? forever held in the past by my faulty healing? i need an adult... )
