Grug

Maybe trying to see if the problems comes from you might help

the fact im breathing seems to annoy you

i dont feel respected as a person around you

neither do I. more like a brainless monkey

ik i cant change you but do you realise how annoying and direspectful AND NOT ONLY TO ME to also other people ?

do you realize how rude youve became these last few weeks to not only me but the rest of the family too ?

>Arguing with your twin brother on a shitpost stream

apparently im the one posting "brown" shit on his "green" comment section

you victimizing yourself thats really what you think is the right thing to do?

would you like to have someone saying "youre putting brown shit on my comment section get out" ????????

yes so i learn that im embarrassing people

i do

is there any reasons to that ?

and do i try my best to change? oh boy i do, everyday is a lil harder everyday i get a lil more insane cause im tired im tired of my life im tired of this shit im tired of people im tired of myself im tired of whats happenning im tired of everything and im tired of doing my best not to show all of this and im tired of trying my best not to let it all out.

and you didnt even think abt saying this to your brother. your twin brother. you litteraly wrote songs abt "dont be scared to ask for help". bro get your shits out on anything but stop giving hell to others. yes this may be hard for you but remember that relations take years to build but seconds to destroy and ours right now is i might say not far from the lowest point.

do you really think that id say iportant stuff like to someone that doesnt respects me ?

dont hate urself. i know u just asked me to act like no therapist but bro if theres one person i would not support losing it would be you. Bro what would i be without you

everyday i live in the ilusion of a lie thinking i love myself

i'm f**king crying.....

what do u think i am doin

I don't

the im tired you replied to wasnt the "im sleepy " kind if ykwim

and im lying.... i love you and i hate myself
dnot
dnot act like a therapist i wanna sleep now

ik it wasnt the sleepy kind

MAYBE THE ISSUE IS THAT I CANT CHANGE MYSELF !!!!!!!!!!! DO YOU EVER THINK ABT THAT !? I TRY HARD TOO YK ???! BUT LIKE YOU I FAIL MF I FAIL !!!!! YOU BASTARD NEVER REALLY CARED ACTUALLY. THATS IT IMMA END IT ALL.

I hate you

take your time, i'll wait

youre the only person thinking i dont respect you.Why's that ? tell me what shows i dont respect you ?? (other than the brown shit, i want valid irl stuff)

if i tell you "pls be quiet"NOT FOR MY OWN GOOD AND WITH A PLS unless i raise my voice or get mom involved, you wont listen, when i ask you for the mic (ik its not mine but still) and you dont use it you forget to give it to me and dont tell me "dont make one incident a generality" but it happenned multiple times, if i say something disrespectful against you instead of telling me that it hurts and you would not like it to be said , you repeat it against me WHICH I FIND EVEN MORE DISRESPECTFUL anyway im not gonna write everything down hope you see whats wrong

need more ?

mhm... what about when you throw looks at me like if your eyes could send knives. wbt when you talk to me like if i was a degenerated 4 yo. Wbt when i grab all your stuff and put it in the car and you dont even say thanks or dont even bother doing the same for me (like you said "dont make one accident a generality" this happenned multiple times). Wbt when you say that im ugly as a joke. Wbt when you forget IM A F**KING AUTISTIC BOY !!!!!!!!!! I CANT CONTROL MYSELF ALL THE TIME TOO !!!! THATS HOW I AM !!!! NOT REALLY HOW I WISH I WAS BUT IT COULD BE WORSE !!!! When you raise your voice oh boy i feel like im being disrespected like im a 6yo kid. If i say would you like the same you will just say "yes so ik im embarassing people" but BROTHER IM NOT YOU !!!!! I'm not f**king you....

YOU DONT REALISE HOW IT FEELS TO FEEL LIKE U ARE MORE MATURE THAN THE WHOLE HOUSEHOLD YOU DONT AND DONT TEL ME YOU DO CAUSE YOU ARE FAR FROM ACTING AS MATURE AS ME

IM AUTISTIC TOO MF DID YOU FORGET ?! YOU NOT THE ONLY ONE FR ONG NO SHIT?! MF AUTISM ISNT AN EXCUSE , ITS LIKE BLAMING ELECTRICIANS FOR TRASH WATER PIPES WORK

AND BTW DO YOU REALISE YOU KINDA ACT LIKE A 4YO SO MAYBE IF YOU WANT THINGS TO CHANGE YOU BETTER CHANGE YOURSELF

IF I EVEN HAD THE BALLS ID COMMIT SUICIDE AND I MEANT IT IF THERE WASNT MUSIC NOTHING WOUD BE WORTH LIVING FOR RN

IM TIREEEEEEEEEEEEED AND IK YOU GON SAY THE SAME BUT IDC I. AM. TIRED

Im tired of waking up with pain in my stomach im tired of working im tired of addiction im tired of oppression im tired of society im tired of medicine im tired of dad im tired of handicaps im tired of my self esteem im tired of being alone im tired of this music school im tired of being different im tired of living im tired of everything

im tired of this shithole im tired of being proven wrong im tired of being cut while talking im tired of being disrespected im tired of being a subject to jealousy im tired of manipulation im tired of demotivation im tired of depression im tired of lessons im tired of argues im tired of living

im tired

then sleep.

this aint a joke

learn to make this illusion real then. idfk how i aint bo illusionist but thats just ur brain telling you that or this is real or fake. learn to choose if it is in fact real or fake or just make it so it becomes the way you want it to be : real or fake. Mf i love you, and if what mom said is true, thats half of you loving you.

what did mom say ?

we're kinda like a single soul that splitted in two parts

i thought you were gon pul up the fact mom think Come fusionned with me idk why

nah. if he fusionned with any of us two, one would be retarded maybe....like that one kid at la ferté. i mean.... maybe not... but idk....

retarded is another word for down syndrome so no not at all

anyway imma try to sleep

same there. sorry... love you.
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*loud ahh mic* MOTHERFU- >:D
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(nah tho srs i luv u like the 2 robbers in the meet the sheriff skit did between themselves ifykwim)

yea me too. gn

gn