You should not kill yourself. You may feel like shit today, but what’s a bad time without a good time? I’m not trying to just tell u to cheer up, I hope this was taken as a reassurance that better times are ahead.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=opsDuWeiaRM&pp=ygUSZipjayB5b3VyIGZlZWxpbmdz
The second clip might give you some positive inspiration. Go and start dedicating time to self improvement. Stay strong my G