Vent

All my problems began when I was 4 years old, my parents were constantly arguing. One night my mom came back home from her 3rd job she had at the time, she was exhausted and tired, and she wanted to go to sleep, but all she saw was my father sitting down, drunken, and watching TV, my dad told her to give me a bath and put me to bed, I didn't know what was going on at the time, I was still so small. Mom then left him afterwards and I was scared and didn't know what was going on, and now I know since my mom told me this after an argument.

When I was 5, my mom remarried, and now I have a stepdad

When I was 6 or 7, I forgot, I was in 1st grade, the teacher was insanely strict on religion, and she even shamed me and my family for not being Christian. It made me feel horrible about myself, luckily the teacher recently got fired for it a few years ago because she smacked a kid in the face for being Muslim.

When I was 8, I just developed an insane bout of depression, I got therapy, unfortunately my family can't pay for it anymore due to the covid situation that happened which made it more expensive, I had a nice therapist named Tim, he tried to help but it wasn't working. But when Tim was sick one day, there was another therapist there as a substitute, he tried touching me in appropriately, so I bolted out the door and didn't say a word.
That's when I quit therapy.

When I was 10, in 2020, I joined imgflip due to the pandemic isolating me from my friends, so I made new friends on there.

When I was 11, I decided to practice art just as a coping mechanism, I also decided to make others art as a thank you for helping me along the way, even if I never knew them.

When I was 12, I asked some dude who was also in the Splatoon fandom, I will keep him anonymous for now to prevent others from attacking him, even if I hate him for what he did. I asked him for a commission, but unfortunately, I didn't know what a commission was at the time and simply thought it meant art request, and he gave me a 3d model of one of my splatoon OCS, splatza. But then he wanted me to pay and I didn't know what to do, so I just said "I'm 12, I can't pay." And he then made everyone think I was a jackass and he even suicide baited. I still dont forgive him, I hate him.

When I was 13, in 2023, I found more friends, like sylc, but she betrayed me soon after by bullying me for being straight and organizing server raids.

Now I'm 14, and I'm already sneaking alcohol from my parents, and also at the worst state of mental health I've ever been in. There's a lot more in between this stuff but I just needed to get the main parts out.

There's no need to I just needed to get this out

Also, don't get mad, this is just a vent and I really needed to get this out, thank you for your patience.

therapists do suck
here to talk if you want
I'm sorry this has happened

What do you think constituted as being bullied for your sexuality?

She called me nicknames like "straighto" and she even told me to kms for being straight

I'm only asking because I think you often use a victimizing mindset

I don't try to, I rarely ever recognize myself as a victim, if there's drama in heavily involved in, I know I'm a part of the cause, I just don't wanna let my enemies know it

who

Sylc

Why don't you try to actually get help in real life
I mean you know you have a problem with alcohol, and it's fine that you don't want to talk to your parents about it
But that's all about we can do on here
We cannot contact your parents or try to fill in as one
Try to talk to someone you trust first than maybe try to talk to your parents
No offense

There's nobody

The teachers are "legally required" to tell my parents

How about your irl friends? Or someone close to that?

They'd report it to the teachers and they'd notify my parents, the school gives students a 20$ tip for reporting a student in danger

Why'd school do that?
And if that's the case, maybe it's a sign to look things over, see where you can improve: mentally, online, and (possibly) physically
Try to slowly implement that to your life instead of instantly so you can adjust to it
Try to reduce on your stress by removing the things associated with the negativity

Thank you.

I read the whole thing, anyway sorry about that dw I'll be your "friend" even though I don't really do that online

Thank you bro.

Sorry about that
I really hope things get better for you

Thank you bro