dude im not even going to lie when i was doing all of that i wasnt really thinking for myself. it took me untill after to realise what i was doing and then all the emotions hit. i talked with swede and spire about all this and they seem to understand. do i want to fix things and redeem myself? of course. but if thats not an option i understand. swede and spire and i are on good terms again. but of course i remember msmg and i know yall are mostly not forgiving. so yeah. i aint expecting a bunch of praise, i dont deserve it