The face you'll hopefully make someday if you're a 5 point Calvinist when you suddenly realize that God still remains sovereign with allowance for man's choice & faith isn't a work; 2nd is the fear & horror you'll feel when you realize the assault this teaching is on God's character & the unelect; 4th is the anger you'll feel about the gaslit, smug, condescending willful lies from the leaders, the assault on God's character & humanity that you were taught & read & at yourself for accepting it for so long. 3rd is the disgust when you think back to all of the accusations against God & the assault with decrees of action against humanity for "His good pleasure."; 6th is the repentance of any harm you did, the relief you feel that God woke you up & the gratitude for the prayers prayed by other brethren & God's patience, mercy, grace, forgiveness & the joy of the true relationship with God you can have & abundant Life you can experience. 5th is the sadness & regret you'll feel at the betrayal of professed brethren & pastors, believing those things about God & anyone you may have betrayed, hurt or condemned while under this spell.
