Here y'all go since y'all are asking for it...if u magically read it allat The order is 1."School" 2."Friends" 3."Family"

So if y'all were thinking I had a neutral life or some shit welp here it is
The part of this bloody massively deep Iceberg of true hell that my life was

So part 1 school:[1/2].

At kindergarten I was laughed at and mocked

Then I went to 2 primary school (because moving out)

In both of these I was harassed and bullied

In the first one
Everyone were rejecting me there was even a girl who invited everyone in the class for her birthday except me
Ppl who were playing with me were doing it out of pity but had mostly disgust when talking and looking at me
It was so bad that like my mom said I had made a kind of bubble and was barely talking to anyone (family included)
I was also bullied by a teacher because he didn't liked me at all

Second elementary school I was betrayed by the only friend I had in there

Then we got middle school (did 2 middle school cuz again, moving out)

First one I was harassed and bullied

I was even bullied by a math teacher because I had bad grades.

School: [2/2]

I was harassed and bullied constantly by a group of 6-7 guys

Oh yeah I was also touched on the ass by a last year (I was 12)

And also getting mocked etc etc

Wtf

Damn bro im so sorry

It's okay (no f**king way you read it allat)

I did
I'm a speedreader

I forgor about that lol

lolol

Then we got

Part 2 friends..:

I don't really have true friends ig.. because It's always me who have to text first

Because I'm pretty I could disappeare for 5 years my.."friends" wouldn't even notice it

And lol I got betrayed and hella hurted so many times

First we got Mossi who force my to see a psychiatrist (smt that I insanely hate and have a trauma about) then she just insulted me, blocked and unfriended me than banned me from all her discord servers

Then we got one of the worst
Bunni SHE (hold this single word in mind) was one of my closest friends she was always her for me and all but one day she unfriended me and blocked me idk why. we had a friend in common Happy
A year after this Happy texted me and said that Bunni kept trash talking about me whenever Happy mentioned me

And that Bunni was in reality a boy.
Not femboy
Not gay
Not trans
Not any lgbtq thing
But a boy boy who was playing as a girl
So for like a year of friendship with "her" I was tricked....

Then we got Lasagna a great friend too we were texting eachothers everydays

But one day she sent me a message saying that she couldn't anymore that it was not my fault but hers and I was the greatest person she ever met then she blocked and unfriended me....

Then we got a buuunch of ppl hurting me in so many ways...the so called friends lol...

why would you being pretty mean they wouldn't notice you cry 😭
anyways that really sucks, I'm sorry you have to go through that

Been stuff like thoses for 13 years lol nothing new

Then the final part (not really)

Part 3. Family...:

I never really had a good thing with my family

Always blamed
Always forced to do stuff I didn't wanted to do
My first ever true best friend was my dog....the first ever living being who was nice to me..

My dad used to beat me up with a belt that had a lion bronze head on it

He never really cared that much about me

He mostley cared about himself
Not even spending much time with his own son..so me..
He was rude/harsh to me, my older sister and my mom..
Criticizing me at every occasion he had..

But then he left when I was 11
A year later my mom replaced him with even worse
An alcoholic smoker.
He was nice at th beginning but now he's a complete horrible dickhead who critize everyone in the family and treat me mike shit

He get easily drunk and get angry at my mom saying she have other me behind his back (she don't) he's also a f**king parasite

So yeah horrible life.

Damn
Thats messed up

Yug

That’s just horrible and tragic, I’m sorry for you

It will be okay lol it's been like that for 13 years

Good, hopefully you will become a Vtuber and Pro Artist

Well, thanks ig? I'm trying to

Good

Conclusion (final part)

My life was never really good...I just since 13 long years keep suffering by every possible ways..
Physically, psychologically, mentally and ofc

Now my heart is so broken that the remaining piece are just... reduced to ashes

I lost the count on how many times I wanted to kill myself

I have so many trauma...so many pain..
My heart is a complete void..

That's why I want to become a Vtuber and a pro artist...
Because..
I want to make ppl around me happy and feel better with my arts and my content
I want toact as wall to block them from going through anything similar to my life...
That's one of my dreams...

Huh?

carrot smoking pipe

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