man, i hate valentines day so f**king much.
a holiday about loving one another and getting together with someone else. way to taunt my ass. i know im never finding love tbh. i have no redeeming qualities at all. im stupid, im fat, and generally a prick. nobody at my school really knows who i am. i just exist. anyone who does does NOT like me. past high school, if i get past that, im gonna be some homeless bum or some mcdonalds worker my whole life. im never finding anything. im hopeless. probably would be better off dead anyways. seriously, nobody's gonna miss me. maybe they'll be happy for once.
another thing, i just get really jealous when i see a couple being cute together or sm shit like that. its like, why cant i have that? what's that toxic prick have? i want someone who just likes me as a person tbh. i want a f**kin hug dawg. my body aches daily and i suspect its from mental/emotional pain.
tldr; im lonely and im gonna be lonely forever