i literally try
but life does not seem to want me to ever solve this problem
and if i ever talk about it my family just says it's not a problem and tries to say i need to read the bible more to get happier
like bruh
i saw ppl once a week TOPS for most of my childhood (and some times even that didn't happen). i got stuck at home for a few years bc of family circumstances and when that got resolved i had no way of getting out until i got my job which took all my time and made it so i barely could ever see people
and when i finally got out we moved 50 mins from everyone ik, and then left the church and now my parents want me to basically throw all those ppl to the side except the 2 ppl ik well, and try to make friends in the exact same way that i had before... off seeing people once a week tops - only these people haven't known me for years like the people i at least knew somewhat
i legit would get sick when i wanted to talk to people from a very young age, it happened so much i became suspicious that someone out there does not want me to escape loneliness
like how is this not a problem