Girl, no need for explanations. Like I also was into some weird shit when I was a lil girl. Still am. Like unironically enjoying SAO levels of deranged.
All sao is weird. It's a violently misogynistic series written by a weird incel.
Like I like the idea of "trapped in an MMO" but like... why do all RPG isekais except for konosuba feel the need to be creepy harem/incest/slavery/all of the above bullshit.