Xai, don't do the unthinkable! Life can have difficult times, but death never is a solution to these problems. If you're not feeling well, talk to your family or your friends about it. The Internet offers lots of free online-therapies which are free and the experts behind these websites offer you help.
It's good to develop a routine as well as try out new hobbies. Life can be sometimes harsh, but the global earth has lots of places you can visit. You could take a nearby hiking track and enjoy the views here.
Some users like me also are ready to assist you, so remember you aren't alone.
I hope you're going to change your mind and pull yourself out of the burden because doing the unthinkable is no solution to this.