yk if i kms i wont have to be lonely anymore

NO

Then put the effort into being someone worth of having a partner. If you cannot find one now it is because people may not see you as desireable. Become desired

For me it's friends i see everyone hanging out w/people and i just want that my only friends started hanging out without me and ignoring me and i feel like nobody wants me anymore

damn, just never have friends to begin with

I had. We didn't have too much in common, just a few books we all liked. But now they just
.. left me

tragic

but since you had some in the past, you have a chance.

It’s difficult nowadays.