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Summary:

Ceptusexual (aka fierisexual), is an ace-spec orientation.
Referencing an individual who experiences little to no sexual attraction but can experience strong sexual desire.

A ceptusexual individual will typically enjoy sex or sexual relationships in theory, but they will lack the same enthusiasm for them in practice. One's desire can potentially manifest in sexual attraction to another if the individual in question happens to meet the conceptual criteria of the ceptusexual's desire.

For me, I feel uncertain about sexual relationships because I fear that once I start having sex, that will be the only thing I'm worth in the relationship. So I tend to avoid sexual relationships. I typically lean more sexually desiring to masculine-bodied people when I do experience attraction in sexual form, but if this attraction is reciprocated I back away. It's also because I'm just not sure if I feel genuine sexual attraction ever, or if I just gaslight myself into it to bring other people more pleasure.

Summary:

Laimoromantic is an aro-spec identity where one is unsure if they're on the aromantic spectrum because they're not sure what romantic attraction is. It is a specific subset of quoiromantic. In a general sense, it determines anyone who doesn't understand what romantic attraction is and/or feels like and feels like because of that, they don't know whether they feel romantic attraction and can't determine any specifications to their attraction.

One who is laimoromantic may not be able to distinguish between romantic attraction and other forms of attraction (sexual, sensual, etc.) The individual may be unsure what romantic attraction “feels like" or how it applies to oneself. Individuals under this label may use external sources to determine what romantic attraction objectively feels like, but not having any internal ways to know when one is feeling romantic attraction.

It may be someone who generally doesn't understand what the concept of attraction of any kind means to them, and so can't tell whether they feel romantic attraction. It may also be someone who has difficulty distinguishing between romantic attraction, romantic relationships, and different kinds of romantic acts (such as kissing, holding hands, etc.), so can't tell if they experience romantic attraction or if they only experience something else like a desire for romantic relationships or stereotypes.

Summary part 2:

I don't experience romantic attraction towards people in general, but when somebody is suffering mentally I begin to care for them. A sympathizer, without empathetic background. I tend to make myself a more "parental role" in relationships, rather than a partner.

In this situations, I will often accept if someone desires a romantic relationship, because I have a fear of letting people down. I typically don't mention this in relationships, because I have a significant fear of abandonment and I don't like hurting people.

When someone gets overly romantic with me, I get uncomfortable. The same applies if a person begins taking their general frustrations/sorrows out on me. I will typically end the relationship unless I gave them explicit permission to use their anger and sorrows out on me. I build my relationships based off of how I feel I can trust someone not to use my personal information against me. But I'll also leave if the person is doing better for themselves in life, and I determine that they no longer need my support.

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But then there's one person (he knows exactly who he is).
Where I do feel the physical signs of love towards him.My heart beats super fast and my face gets all hot when I look at him and I get all puddle-like when I hear his voice and all that fun stuff. I desire having him to feel love for me and try to work towards it. But I'm uncertain about whether I genuinely care, or if it's just greed. I don't know if it's genuine love or not because I've never quite felt like this before with anyone.

Summary:

Erasgender is a xenogender in where gender feels "erased" by an agender identity, and there is only a small trace of gender left. Made with neurodivergent people in mind, but is not an exclusive term.

The colors on the erasgender flag are purposefully very faint, to symbolize the "trace" that is often left behind when erasing things on paper, except for the black which is to symbolize the agender "void" that the person now feels.

This in particular is the erasboy flag, because I lean a tiny bit on the masculine side but would not conclusively call myself a male due to it feeling too restricting.

well ngl thats confusing af but glad you found what utr gender is! thats cool!