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Aighty :]

dang. thats bad. i would like to say that you are doing a great job at being strong emotionally. i would never have the ability to handle it. its kinda sad to see people who call themself Christian and talk about such things. you are doing a great job and hopefully, there is a day when you won't experience this anymore.

as i can tell by the first comment , your mom and grand mother both have main character gang syndrome , both are racist and think they are better than anyone , they laugh at people that does not do the same things as them because they think they're exemple to this society , which is totally wrong. One might be allat due to parents , one might be allat due to divorce , but they both act and think the same . They are both deep inside not happy of themselves , they may hate themselves , so they put all the hate they create on themselves on another one. If someone is filled with self hate , it will hate something/someone else to make them feel like they are better than what they are because they refuse to accept what they are. But you . You are filled with an innocent soul that wants to love people , not hate on them , and this is because you dont hate what you are.... i mean you might want to switch gender but you know and want to do it , u accept it , you dont resist it. On one side you have the ones who will deny the fact everybody is human like them , on the other side there is the one who sees things as they are . On one side you have the ones who will die filled with negative feelings , they may even be angry to have a black stone instead of a white one , while on the other side , you have the ones who will die filled with good feelings , for listenning to their own choices , for loving people , for helping, instead of hating.
Allat to say that yes , good and evil exist irl , its just inside that the fight happen . Stay strong.

Since I’ve been going to a new school, I’ve been using the name Jaden I don’t know if it’s a euphoric as the other name I’d like to use, but I’d probably get believe for using that one sadly but at least it’s better than my dead name. Sadly, both my parents and possibly my brother I don’t know if my dad is though they might be trans phobic and I really hate that since my parents divorce my mom has been so much more conservative. She would be absolutely pissed if she found out that I’ve been using a different name so my grandma once I heard my grandma laughing at a video making fun of trans mask people and that was really annoying, I can hardly take it. I swear these days I’m just gonna snap and neither tell my mom teacher she’s emotionally abusive or just come out my phone will get taken away for good and I’ll be out to everyone if I tell someone they’ll think I’m being lying for attention if I act out, I’ll probably lose friends and get in trouble. I just can’t do anything about it and I don’t wanna burn people. I honestly suicidal because of it but if I tell anyone, my mom will find out and guilt me probably vape and smoke even more if that’s even physically possible up my depression meds and pressure me tell her what’s wrong. I don’t know if I can take anymore, but I can’t do anything about it. I’m genuinely scared of my mom finding out about any of this. She’s made perfectly clear that she hates all LGBTQ plus people she said it so many terrible things about queer people and it’s really s****y. Honestly I’m really scared of what she might do she find out about any of this multiple times and last time she said Me and Grandma have given you so much is repay us also homophobic trans racist, xenophobic, and sexist and many other things she thinks most foreign people are terrorist or not as good as white straight all American, whatever fat people , she hates immigrants and she thinks white conservative. Christian are discriminated unjust and she wants her type all the planet. I know I’ve heard it many times by genuinely fear. I don’t know how I can go without snapping doing something all regret. I’m really scared that I haven’t internalized racism because of her and I feel really bad about it. I don’t want to hate people. I just can’t. I feel terrible when I’m venting the light as I’m venting right now the lightbulb my room is flickering rapidly And is giving me a headache while I’m venting. My dad hit me as a little kid