i may still be pissed at my ex. i dont know anymore. im so bipolar. i know that they broke up with me because of my personality. also i dont want to be with anyone but my freind kinda likes me and they like touch and i hate it. so i have to avoid them whilst sitting. and i see everyone else being happy with their partners and that reminds me how lonely i am. i try and hide this trauma and keep my online persona clean from my pain but i cant help but have the wound bleed out. bleed out into my other personalitys. you may not have seen it before but if you look you may find it. its only after an event happens do you get hindsight.