Okay I know you don't know me and I don't know you. But I want you to listen to me.
We are all only human. We make mistakes and we mess up bad. Friendships crash and burn and sometimes we are at fault. Believe me, I know how that feels. But it is not the end. I've seen your recent posts and I don't think cutting everyone off is the best idea. You need support. You need to talk to these people who know you and care about you and who you can trust. There are people here for you that want to help you heal.
We make mistakes and sometimes they cant be fixed. The best thing we can do in these cases is try to move on and learn and grow. I want you to be able to do that. Just know that you are always ALWAYS worthy of love and friendship and time, no matter what.