For context: Freedrock is a character from the Roblox game 'Arcane Odyssey', and he's the holder of the Lazarus curse which lets you come back twice as strong every time you die, but every time you die you have a higher chance of not coming back. Freedrock has died and been revived 583 times, and most, if not all of those deaths were from attempted suicide. In short he basically killed himself a bunch of times to get more powerful.