the depression is here. yay. (he said, unenthusiastically.) TW. Implied SH and suicidal thoughts

Now that I think about it… it’s always after 9pm 🤔

which is why you can't trust them :>

“The voices in my head keep telling me that I’m insane. Maybe I’m a little bit but that won’t change.” - Voices In My Head by Falling In Reverse

🫂

:(

All thoughts after 9pm and before 8am are considered untrustworthy

I have these thoughts all the time tho

i'm always tired

I always turn to maladaptive daydreaming which might not be healthy

i do sometimes do

sometimes my brain does the funny thing where it constructs entire stories with arcs and character development while I should be sleeping

and then when I get up and try to write those stories down, they vanish

the pain of being a storyteller

No wait because it’s the same thing for me but I can write them down most of the time

That’s where most of my fanfics come from because I get a little to obsessive

Too* >:(

my daydream story arcs come from ones i've already written down :3

Don't trust any thoughts

Don't think at all

can't have negative thoughts if you don't think

if only

Bro I wish 💀

hello! i’m new here but i hope you are okay 🙁. i have healthy alternatives to sh if you need those.

9pm-7am

Yes. Yes they are. Now sleep

I CAN'T THAT'S WHY THE THOUGHTS ARE HERE

yes

No thoughts are trustworthy for me
Anyways what would those thoughts be?

that i'm broken and wrong somehow

coupled with the other standard depression thoughts

aw darn

well yeah none of those ones are true

thnx <3

np c:

you have normal intrusive thoughts, mine are overly complicated and borderline absurd most of the time

trust me, nothing about me is normal

i also get thoughts of how to sleep, and at least half of them violate the geneva convention

i sound like i'm joking and i don't think i am

interesting
well either way being normal is lame in the first place

i'd rather be normal because then i would frickin sleep

it is what it is though
no point in worrying about what can't be changed

but thats the ting
insomnia apparently CAN be cured and changed but it just doesn't work for me and I have no idea why and nobody seems to know why and it's all messed up and I hate it I hate it so much

also unfortunate
obviously I'm not an expert so yeah idk how I would fix that
when I can't sleep I tend to just give tf up and get up to do something instead