I just can't take more of the feeling of being looked down on.

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I know what you're feeling buddy. We all have our good days and bad days. It's a balance. Keep waiting. No matter how hard it gets, how long it is, there are always pockets of joy even in heck.

Its difficult when you were just insulted today by one of the mods here

It ain't as easy as the meme above, but you'll still be able to do it.

They inflicted a deep wound in me. And it does not help the fact my best friend I was very close too and was my ONLY best friend outside of Imgflip commited suicide

...I'm sorry.
It's always hard to have friends die.

I'll be there for you if you need a helping hand buddy.

Thank you.