@ayden

one day you think: i want to die and then you think very quietly: actually. actually i think i want a coffee, or a nap, or a sandwich, or a book; and "i want to die" turns day by day into "i want to go home, i want to walk in the woods, i want to meet friends, i want to sit and watch the sunset, or sit in the sun"; "i want a cleaner room" "i want a better job" "i want to live somewhere else" "actually. actually i think i want to live"