I REMEMBER WHEN I WAS 10 ON A SATURDAY AND FIRST SAW THE MASS GRAVES, THE STARVED, THE DISMEMBERED, AND ASHES OF THE JEWS, WITNESSES, GYPSIES, GAYS, AND THE NEURODIVERGENT. AND THOUGHT “TRULY SUCH AN EVIL IS PROOF THAT THE DEVIL WALKS AMONGST US AND POISONS OUR VERY SOULS.”
HOW IGNORANT I WAS. AND NOW HERE I AM. A STUDENT OF HISTORY DAMNED TO WITNESS SUCH DEVASTATION AGAIN WITH WHAT LITTLE SHRED OF HOPE IT COULD END WITH BUT THE WORDS OF ONE MAN WHO CLAIMED TO FIGHT FOR THE SOUL OF MY COUNTRY, THE GOOD MAN, WHIMPER AND DO NOTHING. AS I FEEL THE HAIRS ON THE BACK OF MY NECK GRIPPED BY THE COLD HANDS OF TENS OF THOUSANDS OF GHOSTS SLAUGHTERED LIKE ANIMALS AKIN TO THE MILLIONS I SAW AS A CHILD. ONLY TO BE MOCKED AT BEST, TOLD TO LET WHAT LITTLE LIGHT IN MY SOUL LEFT BE SWALLOWED INTO THE ABYSS, OR PUNISHED AT WORST FOR DARING TO DO MORE THAN SAY “HOW AWFUL.” AND RETURN TO MY MEAL LIKE MY PARENTS DID FOR RWANDA BECAUSE I DON’T WANT MY LABORS TO HAVE ANY PART IN THE GENOCIDE OF MY FELLOW HUMAN BROTHERS AND SISTERS. HOWEVER DISTANT THEY MAY BE. AFTER ALL MY PURPOSE IS TO HELP SAVE LIVES NOT CLAIM THEM. BUT WHAT I FEAR MOST OF ALL, WITH A BOURBON IN ONE ARM AND A PISTOL WITHIN REACH OF THE OTHER. IS THAT THE PEOPLE I LOVE AND I’VE WELCOMED INTO MY HOME AND FED WITHOUT EXPECTATIONS WILL BE THE ONES NEXT.
OR EVEN WORSE, THAT THE VERY PEOPLE ENDORSING WHOLE SALE SLAUGHTER OF OUR FELLOW HUMANS IN THE NAME OF VENGEANCE…ARE AMONGST THEM. HOW NAIVE I WAS TO THINK THIS WAS ALL DEVILS WORK WHEN THE TRUTH IS. IT IS MERELY A UNIQUE ASPECT OF OURSELVES FUELED BY A HATE SO DEEP, POTENT, FRIGHTFUL AND DISGUSTINGLY SELF SUSTAINING. JEHOVAH SHOW MERCY ON US ALL…; BECAUSE I DON’T KNOW IF WE HAVE ANY LEFT AMONGST OURSELVES!
