hey, i'm so sorry you relapsed. i know we've never spoken, but i just want you to know i'm proud of you for making it this long. i know you can make it again, and it's okay to struggle.
i think the most ive self harmed was when i was trying to cut zip ties on robot infrastructure with a knife and i cut my finger relativly deep (acsedentaly). however it has healed (after one and a half weeks)