so over the last few days. ive been thinking that all this desnt realy matter. (homosexual underground from disco elesium) i have gotten to the point to say im just me. i am not the words that discribe me. agender peudo describes me.
demiboy. yes i know.
im just a person who doesnt want to like people. conseales it and tells nobody abount it. one could describe me as aroace. but i know the truth. it is: i dont know. :/
its all good. but yeah ive heard this before and i dont see myself as neutral. i see myself with out gender. then there is my right hymishere of the brain telling my that he is a guy
now they like me, but i also like them, but they are going too fast even after me telling them to stop. they do it subconsiously. likely a way to cope. i feel like they are trying to impress me. i prefer the person they are to what they do