Live footage of my dumb ass trying to animate

This is me trying
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A toddler could do that

I'm a pro artist and when you're trying to make a studio quality film it looks like a studio made it but shitty and then it's not perfect and then you just hope to one day let yourself live with your mistakes and you can't and you go insane and then you chug energy drinks and sugar and still can't to anything and then there's that one voice of hope in your head that says;