I want N and Marth to rail me until my legs can't move.

No

I say this as this is currently happening

My mouth was just moving intrusive, saying that no one likes me. I just laughed it off, I guess.

what happens is while I’m alone in a room with the door locked, I just start to cry, remember all the bullshit I go through everyday for existing, and tell myself I was never meant to happen, everyone hates me, stuff like that.

I understand that.
I felt happy the second I can reach my room. It felt like no one there could hurt me. I could be by myself. It was just me.

not even the voice likes to talk to me

yeah but from real people @LegoManInRiver *AHEM*